I wanna go back to bed

Thu, 27 Mar 2008 10:14:04 -0600

I woke up cranky this morning.. probably because I went to bed cranky. . .

Why? Because I was in pain, a lot of pain.

Went to dinner at Red Robin with Chan and her Mom and I really didn't SEEM to eat that much, I saved half of my sandwich, we shared a basket of fries between the 3 of us, and shared a dessert as well. I had a fruity rum drink and some water. By the time I got home, I was in an unbelievable amount of pain. All I could do was lay down on the love seat and curl up with my blanket... I tried falling asleep for a bit, but of course people started calling me as always.

I wasn't able to do what I needed to do such as laundry, or doing the dishes or anything productive like.

It seems that I'm in a funk. A funk I don't like, and can't get out of. I think, because I haven't gotten a really good amount of sleep since Friday. Sara, without sleep = evil demon bitch. I'm headed that way now. People don't realize how much I love, desire, and need sleep.

I ended up taking my BC pill this morning, and now I remember why I don't do that. Because it makes me nauseous, and dizzy and not feel right. I was finally able to get down a toaster strudel, and I feel a tad bit better. I think I need to go eat some real food though, and drink my Dew. I'll probably feel a ton better after that.

I had to go to the Va-jay-jay doctor yesterday after work for my yearly (now every 2 years!) check up, so that was fun as always. I asked her about getting and IUD put in, but she suggested that I NOT get that because of my history, and to get the Norplant instead.. which I totally forgot about.. and those are for 3 years... and then this morning I started freaking out.

<begin freak out>

Today is Chantelle's 26th Birthday, which means my 26th birthday is in a few months, which also means, we're ALMOST 30. I can't believe that. I'm almost 30, no husband, no kids, not much to show for myself at this point other than a lot of debt, some good friends, and an active sex life. If I get a Norplant, that means I have a 99% chance of not having kids in the next 3 years. If I get an IUD that means no kids for 5 years. (yes I know either can be taken out at any time but thats not the point). Do I really expect myself to NOT be married in 3-5 years and wanting a family?? In my mind I had wanted that by the time I was 24. But that in no way even came close to happening. Why do I even care, I don't even like kids that much. Unless they're quiet and sleeping then they're adorable. So why does it matter. Why am I putting such a stress on myself. Tons of women today don't care about getting married or families until their 30's, but if I decide I do want some eventually, I don't wanna be too old to get it accomplished. AAHhhhhh

My money should be in my account today, yay, and I think I may go mattress shopping this weekend....

Oh and I still have this tooth that is bothering me, and giving me a headache.. and I've been taking lots of ibuprofen to lessen the pain.. I have an appt Tuesday with as who Crom74 would call the frelling dentist. I really need a cleaning my teeth are not in great shape right now. And I need to figure out what's causing this pain. Since this tooth had a root canal a few years ago.. there should be no pain...

K I've gotta go work now..

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I wanna go back to bed