Such an odd week it's been

Ever since monday I've been in some FUNK. My horoscope explained it perfectly and pretty much all week has been right on target with it.

I'm supposed to be thinking about my future and what I want in life for the next year and its been making me question a LOT of things. And one of the major ones being whatever it is between ATC and myself. Outta the blue I'm questioning both my and his actions and picking apart every lil thing thats said or done or not done for that matter. I'm being that "typical psycho girl" mainly in my head, but reaching out to Tanya and Ron and Lisa for help deciphering it all. They can only give me so much advice, I'm the one to act on it.

I was trying to wait till my bday/party to see how things were going with us, it's only a few weeks away but it may be hard with all these crazy ass emotions going through my head!! Acting like this is soooooooooo not me and its really difficult to deal with! I know from his repetitive phrase of " i dont want anything long term" thats where he stands, but i really do. I want some sort of emotion, or connection, or commitment. And when there's others out there that want that, and want it WITH me, its hard not to think of that.

Last night myself, ATC, Lisa and Nick all went bowling. It was good times. I sucked though, the last game i was doing good though.

Somehow though I really hurt my back it was sore last night after we left, and then again this morning when I woke up it was really bad like the whole mid/lower section all the way across and around argh. sucks.

I was lucky enough to enjoy the pool that was kid-free today! I think the swimming really helped a lot to loosen up my muscles. but its still not perfect. I may end up taking a muscle relaxer later on.

After bowling we all went to ATC's house and played pool and drank some more there and chilled and had a good time. He brought up my bday party a lot, like he's really excited about it, which, in my crazy emotional state just made me more confused LoL. oy vey! Then we had to come back to my house since his truck was here, mainly because his work badge was in it, got him some taco bell and passed out for a few hours before he had to get up and go.

I slept in till about 930 today so that was nice, my stomach has been completely unhappy though because I was drinking on an empty stomach all night! Not a good idea! Oh well I'll live, hopefully.

Yesterday I made my THIRD call this week to my leasing agent about my damn screen window and AC. He tried to tell me that "Chad" whoever he is called me TWICE and I refused him entrance in to my apt. First of all thats BS. Had he ever called me I would have made arrangements. So I told him he was lying to him, and if that was the case, why would i continually be calling to GET IT FIXED HELLO. Idiots.

I'm waiting for the mail to be delivered, i'm supposed to be getting confessions of a shopaholic. that will keep me occupied for a lil while.

Tomorrow may hang out with ATC in the evening and watch while he fixes his truck.. sounds exciting . . . . . . i guess. or I may not lol.

I guess ill go put some pants on and check the mail box (=